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:I shot it。; I pulled my bow off my shoulder。 I was still using the small version my father had made me�察�but I・d been practicing with the full´size one when I could。 I was hoping that by spring I might be able to bring down some bigger game。
Gale・s eyes fastened on the bow。 :Can I see that�拭─�I handed it over。 :Just remember�察�stealing・s punishable by death。;
That was the first time I ever saw him smile。 It transformed him from someone menacing to someone you wished you knew。 But it took several months before I returned that smile。
We talked hunting then。 I told him I might be able to get him a bow if he had something to trade。 Not food。 I wanted knowledge。 I wanted to set my own snares that caught a belt of fat rabbits in one day。 He agreed something might be worked out。 As the seasons went by�察�we grudgingly began to share our knowledge�察�our weapons�察�our secret places that were thick with wild plums or turkeys。 He taught me snares and fishing。 I showed him what plants to eat and eventually gave him one of our precious bows。 And then one day�察�without either of us saying it�察�we became a team。 Dividing the work and the spoils。 Making sure that both our families had food。
Gale gave me a sense of security I・d lacked since my father・s death。 His panionship replaced the long solitary hours in the woods。 I became a much better hunter when I didn・t have to look over my shoulder constantly�察�when someone was watching my back。 But he turned into so much more than a hunting partner。 He became my confidante�察�someone with whom I could share thoughts I could never voice inside the fence。 In exchange�察�he trusted me with his。 Being out in the woods with Gale 。 。 。 sometimes I was actually happy。
I call him my friend�察�but in the last year it・s seemed too casual a word for what Gale is to me。 A pang of longing shoots through my chest。 If only he was with me now� �But�察�of course�察�I don・t want that。 I don・t want him in the arena where he・d be dead in a few days。 I just 。 。 。 I just miss him。 And I hate being so alone。 Does he miss me�拭�He must。
I think of the eleven flashing under my name last night。 I know exactly what he・d say to me。 :Well�察�there・s some room for improvement there。; And then he・d give me a smile and I・d return it without hesitating now。
I can・t help paring what I have with Gale to what I・m pretending to have with Peeta。 Hootives while I do nothing but doubt the latter・s。 It・s not a fair parison really。 Gale and I were thrown together by a mutual need to survive。 Peeta and I know the other・s survival means our own death。 How do you sidestep that��
Effie・s knocking at the door�察�reminding me there・s another :big�察�big�察�big day� ─�ahead。 Tomorrow night will be our televised interviews。 I guess the whole team will have their hands full readying us for that。
I get up and take a quick shower�察�being a bit more careful about the buttons I hit�察�and head down to the dining room。 Peeta�察�Effie�察�and Haymitch are huddled around the table talking in hushed voices。 That seems odd�察�but hunger wins out over curiosity and I load up my plate with breakfast before I join them。
The stew・s made with tender chunks of lamb and dried plums today。 Perfect on the bed of wild rice。 I・ve shoveled about halfway through the mound when I realize no one・s talking。 I take a big gulp of orange juice and wipe my mouth。 :So�察�what・s going on�拭�You・re coaching us on interviews today�察�right�拭�
:That・s right�察─�says Haymitch。
:You don・t have to wait until I・m done。 I can listen and cat at the same time�察─�I say。
:Well�察�there・s been a change of plans。 About our current approach�察─�says Haymitch。
:What・s that�拭─�I ask。 I・m not sure what our current approach is。 Trying to appear mediocre in front of the other tributes is the last bit of strategy I remember。
Haymitch shrugs。 :Peeta has asked to be coached separately。;
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Betrayal。 That・s the first thing I feel�察�which is ludicrous。 For there to be betrayal�察�there would have had to been trust first。 Between Peeta and me。 And trust has not been part of the agreement。 We・re tributes。 But the boy who risked a beating to give me bread�察�the one who steadied me in the chariot�察�who covered for me with the redheaded Avox girl�察�who insisted Haymitch know my hunting skills 。 。 。 was there some part of me that couldn・t help trusting him��
On the other hand�察�I・m relieved that we can stop the pretense of being friends。 Obviously�察�whatever thin connection we・d foolishly formed has been severed。 And high time�察�too。 The Games begin in two days�察�and trust will only be a weakness。 Whatever triggered Peeta・s decision �X and I suspect it had to do with my outperforming him in training �X I should be nothing but grateful for it。 Maybe he・s finally accepted the fact that the sooner we openly acknowledge that we are enemies�察�the better。
:Good�察─�I say。 :So what・s the schedule�拭�
:You・ll each have four hours with Effie for presentation and four with me for content�察─�says Haymitch。 :You start with Effie�察�Katniss。;
I can・t imagine what Effie will have to teach me that could take four hours�察�but she・s got me working down to the last minute。 We go to my rooms and she puts me in a full´length gown and high´heeled shoes�察�not the ones I・ll he wearing for the actual interview�察�and instructs me on walking。 The shoes are the worst part。 I・ve never worn high heels and can・t get used to essentially wobbling around on the balls of my feet。 But Effie runs around in them full´time�察�and I・m determined that if she can do it�察�so can I。 The dress poses another problem。 It keeps tangling around my shoes so�察�of course�察�I hitch it up�察�and then Effie swoops down on me like a hawk�察�smacking my hands and yelling�察 �Not above the ankle� ─�When I finally conquer walking�察�there・s still sitting�察�posture �X apparently I have a tendency to duck my head �X eye contact�察�hand gestures�察�and smiling。 Smiling is mostly about smiling more。 Effie makes me say a hundred banal phrases starting with a smile�察�while smiling�察�or ending with a smile。 By lunch�察�the muscles in my cheeks are twitching from overuse。
:Well�察�that・s the best I can do�察─�Effie says with a sigh。 :Just remember�察�Katniss�察�you want the audience to like you。;
:And you don・t think they will�拭─�I ask。
:Not if you glare at them the entire time。 Why don・t you save that for the arena�拭�Instead�察�think of yourself among friends�察─�says Effie。
:They・re betting on how long I・ll live� ─�I burst out。 :They・re not my friends� �
:Well�察�try and pretend� ─�snaps Effie。 Then she poses herself and beams at me。 :See�察�like this。 I・m smiling at you even though you・re aggravating me。;
:Yes�察�it feels very convincing�察─�I say。 :I・m going to eat。; 1 kick off my heels and stomp down to the dining room�察�hiking my skirt up to my thighs。
Peeta and Haymitch seem in pretty good moods�察�so I・m thinking the content session should be an improvement over the morning。 I couldn・t be more wrong。 After lunch�察�Haymitch takes me into the sitting room�察�directs me to the couch�察�and then just frowns at me for a while。
:What�拭─�I finally ask。
:I・m trying to figure out what to do with you�察─�he says。
:How we・re going to present you。 Are you going to be charming�拭�Aloof�拭�Fierce�拭�So far�察�you・re shining like a star。 You volunteered to save your sister。 Cinna made you look unforgettable。 You・ve got the top training score。 People are intrigued�察�but no one knows who you are。 The impression you make tomorrow will decide exactly what I can get you in terms of sponsors�察─�says Haymitch。
Having watched the tribute interviews all my life�察�I know there・s truth to what he・s saying。 If you appeal to the crowd�察�either by being humorous or brutal or eccentric�察�you gain favor。
:What・s Peeta・s approach�拭�Or am I not allowed to ask�拭─�I say。
:Likable。 He has a sort of self´deprecating humor naturally�察─�says Haymitch。 :Whereas when you open your mouth�察�you e across more as sullen and hostile。;
:I do not� ─�I say。
:Please。 I don・t know where you pulled that cheery�察�wavy girl on the chariot from�察�but I haven・t seen her before or since�察─�says Haymitch。
:And you・ve given me so many reasons to be cheery�察─�I counter。
:But you don・t have to please me。 I・m not going to sponsor you。 So pretend I・m the audience�察─�says Haymitch。 :Delight me。;
:Fine� ─�I snarl。 Haymitch takes the role of the interviewer and I try to answer his questions in a winning fashion。 But I can・t。 I・m too angry with Haymitch for what he said and that I even have to answer the questions。 All I can think is how unjust the whole thing is�察�the Hunger Games。 Why am I hopping around like some trained dog trying to please people I hate�拭�The longer the interview goes on�察�the more my fury seems to rise to the surface�察�until I・m literally spitting out answers at him。
:All right�察�enough�察─�he says。 :We・ve got to find another angle。 Not only are you hostile�察�I don・t know anything about you。 I・ve asked you fifty questions and still have no sense of your life�察�your family�察�what you care about。 They want to know about you�察�Katniss。;
:But I don・t want them to� �They・re already taking my future� �They can・t have the things that mattered to me in the past� ─�I say。
:Then lie� �Make something up� ─�says Haymitch。
:I・m not good at lying�察─�I say。
:Well�察�you better learn fast。 You・ve got about as much charm as a dead slug�察─�says Haymitch。
Ouch。 That hurts。 Even Haymitch must know he・s been too harsh because his voice softens。 :Here・s an idea。 Try acting humble。;
:Humble�察─�I echo。
:That you can・t believe a little girl from District Twelve has done this well。 The whole thing・s been more than you ever could have dreamed of。 Talk about Cinna・s clothes。 How nice the people are。 How the city amazes you。 If you won・t talk about yourself�察�at least pliment the audience。 Just keep turning it back around�察�all right。 Gush。;
The next hours are agonizing。 At once�察�it・s clear I cannot gush。 We try me playing cocky�察�but I just don・t have the arrogance。 Apparently�察�I・m too :vulnerable; for ferocity。 I・m not witty。 Funny。 Sexy。 Or mysterious。
By the end of the session�察�I am no one at all。 Haymitch started drinking somewhere around witty�察�and a nasty edge has crept into his voice。 :I give up�察�sweetheart。 Just answer the questions and try not to let the audience see how openly you despise them。;
I have dinner that night in my room�察�ordering an outrageous number of delicacies�察�eating myself sick�察�and then taking out my anger at Haymitch�察�at the Hunger Games�察�at every living being in the Capitol by smashing dishes around my room。 When the girl with the red hair es in to turn down my bed�察�her eyes widen at the mess。 :Just leave it� ─�I yell at her。 :Just leave it alone� �
I hate her�察�too�察�with her knowing reproachful eyes that call me a coward�察�a monster�察�a puppet of the Capitol�察�both now and then。 For her�察�justice must finally be happening。 At least my death will help pay for the life of the boy in the woods。
But instead of fleeing the room�察�the girl closes the door behind her and goes to the bathroom。 She es back with a damp cloth and wipes my face gently then cleans the blood from a broken plate off my hands。 Why is she doing this�拭�Why am I letting her��
:I should have tried to save you�察─�I whisper。
She shakes her head。 Does this mean we were right to stand by�拭�That she has forgiven me��
:No�察�it was wrong�察─�I say。
She taps her lips with her fingers then points to my chest。 I think she means that I would just have ended up an Avox�察�too。 Probably would have。 An Avox or dead。
I spend the next hour helping the redheaded girl clean the room。 When all the garbage has been dropped down a disposal and the food cleaned away�察�she turns down my bed。 I crawl in between the sheets like a five´year´old and let her tuck me in。 Then she goes。 I want her to stay until I fall asleep。 To be there when I wake up。 I want the protection of this girl�察�even though she never had mine。
In the morning�察�it・s not the girl but my prep team who are hanging over me。 My lessons with Effie and Haymitch are over。 This day belongs to Cinna。 He・s my last hope。 Maybe he can make me look so wonderful�察�no one will care what es out of my mouth。
The team works on me until late afternoon�察�turning my skin to glowing satin
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